First Girl

Pop Socket Park Play from Disabled And Here project page. Taken by Gritchelle Fallesgon.

Someone tell the first girl I ever loved

She's still in my head

Tell her I'm sorry I want her in my bed

Tell her I regret the things I said

Tell her I'm hurt our friendship is dead

Tell her I knew the risk and foolishly went ahead

Tell her I wish I said nothing instead

Tell her it kills me when she's left me on read

Tell her I felt for her way before I was a newlywed

Tell her my uncertainty filled me with dread

Tell her even though my heart bled

I'm not sorry

I felt what I felt

I said what I said

Heart on my sleeve

Caused her to leave

But gave me relief

The shame released.

Image Description

Portrait torso crop of an autistic Black woman smiling softly while using her pink popsocket stim toy. She has long hair tied back by a lavendar headscarf, multicolor pastel cutout earrings, a nose ring, and a white crop tank on.