Missing Out

Life isn't sacred. And something they won't miss. Ignorance is bliss. And non existence is. A loving kiss.

Missing Out
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Content Warning: mother wounds, unhappiness, suicidal ideation and dissatisfaction


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An empty darkened school room, chairs, desk and a clean whiteboard. A blue sky is reflected in the white board.

Its funny how my mother's patience

Undermined her happiness

How my impatience undermines mine

Happiness is a myth

A story since the beginning of time

A burden I won't share

With the children that could have been mine

Suffering they won't bare

A gift for my unborn kids

Life isn't sacred

And something they won't miss

Ignorance is bliss

And non existence is

A loving kiss.


I have many poems full of existential dread as there was a time in my life where I despised my own existence. I have questioned life, love and happiness. I had so many religious messages growing up about the sanctity of life and it wasn't ringing true for me. The space to wallow in my misery and dissatisfaction and express my deep unhappiness has been so important to me and my relationship with myself.

Being discriminated against, learning about the historical brutalization and torture of people like me, the continuous exploitation of vulnerable people really continues to wreck my mental well-being, it has since I was a child. Despair swallowed me up for a long time and I'm grateful for hope.

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