Seeking difference

I wrote this about me seeking myself and my experience in another person, seeking out someone just as emotionally distant as I am. I was so used to rejection and neglect that I sought it out trying to rewrite my story.

Why do we seek each other out?

Why do you search for me?

Why are you drawn in by me?

Is it because of the difference? 

Is it for the same reasons as mine?

Because that heady high cannot be denied 

Ironically the high from denial

From distance 

From defiance 

Is sweet to the taste 

That's why I'm here 

I know what I'm seeking out

Soft spoken, introvert with somewhat conservative living. 

With that sprinkling of difference 

That touch of open mindedness

But that overwhelming feeling of caution 

The caution 

The hesitation 

The denial 

That's what tastes good

Us knowing

Both knowing 

And relishing 

In the forbidden 

The unconventional 

An unlikely match up

Doomed to fail 

The familiarity of failure 

And unrequited love 

That's what turns me on

Different 

Why are you here? 

Torn between what you have been told

Torn between what you feel? 

You don't approve 

And neither does your mum

Neither does mine

And theres the opportunity 

To push 

Push the boundaries 

Rebel

Reject 

The rush.